Little Hen

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My irrational fear of speaking French.

I don’t know why but I always get filled with this weird dread of speaking French.

I love French. I love how it sounds, I love reading it, I like the culture and the food, and the people aren’t half bad either. But I still panic at the thought of having to speak it or write it. It got better when I was in France because about 60% of the time I didn’t have a choice.

But now it’s got worse. I can feel myself blushing right now at the thought of speaking it. My tongue starts to feel really heavy like it just wouldn’t move even if I wanted it to, and my stomach ties itself in knots. It’s like an irrational fear of speaking French.

I know I can have a half-decent conversation in French. I know I can certainly have an argument with a seven year old in French. I know that I just need to practice and I’ll get better. But I’ve hit some weird block wall. It’s really tempting to just sit in front of it and give up… but that’s just no fun is it? I so desperately want to be able to speak another language fluently. I’m just not sure how to not panic whenever I have to speak French.

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Change happens.

I was having an argument a debate with my flatmate’s boyfriend yesterday evening about being a vegetarian and about the environment in general. At one point he said ‘but what difference does one person make? It won’t make a difference if I change what I’m doing’. 

This struck a nerve to say the least.

Saying that what you do won’t change anything is relinquishing your free-will. Every choice causes a state of change. What you decide to do or not do changes something. That choice can be thought of as a raindrop causing a ripple effect. That decision or thought to do something impacts what you do. Others will judge you by what you do. You might impact how they think. If you impact how others think, you will impact the choices and actions that they make.

The fact is the world is in a constant state of change. Whether you like it or not you’re making a difference. It just depends what kind of differene you want to make. I don’t think I could say it better than Mahatma Gandhi: ‘Be the change that you wish to see in the world.’ And don’t you dare forget how powerful you can be as an individual.

And if you’re interested there’s a three minute talk on creating a movement/leadership by TED which shows how one peroson can cause a movement:  http://www.ted.com/talks/derek_sivers_how_to_start_a_movement?language=en#t-24847

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